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Aftereffects

To continue from where we left, actually that weekend was fast approaching.That friday(to be exact 7-7-2006),v had decided that v ll talk for last on dat sun and ll not talk with each other until v get our parents' acceptance for our divine unconditional love...painfully i had to agree to it...But even till den she never said the three words that i needed to hear the most.den came the saturday, i was goin to off.That time she started to message...v wer talkin abt our beautiful relationshiop...den i reached de off and was havin my smoke before i have go inside the cell to work...Den suddenly came a message tellin the thing i wanted to hear the most "I LOVE U".......godman...i was flabbergasted..a female dat too abt whom im mad about was tellin me like dat.....i did not feel like workin at all...den saturday nite she called...v talked almost for 8 hours...de longest call between us as our usual calls always around 2 to 3 hrs.....v talked as true lovers mad abt each other....wen de time was nearing she was abt to cry...i cried...it was one of the most emotional moments of my life....

de call ended around 4AM next morn...i was sittin before my desktop with tears flowin from eyes beyond any control...i never knew my mom was standin beside me..i was lookin at her fotoz,particularly a snap wer she smiles dats de best..dat time my mom did not tell anythin...she cooled me out and i freshened up..den while havin tea, she slowly started...wat up?y its like dat andall????i was truly emotional...i spoke to her abt all...she just knew my sweetheart as my friend...den as a usual mom of a unruly son, she started to tell all de regular dialogues dat i needed to hear "i kno u...i smelled dis only ll happen...how can a gal and a guy be ever frenz.." all that crap..

den after 2 days i called her tellin dat i wanted to talk to her..she called..i told her dat dis kinda fastin was of no use.....we ll talk with each until somethin somethin happens..if its affirmative den v shall continue, otherwise ill continue with her memories........

DEN STARTED OUR BEAUTIFULL RELATIONSHIP AS PERSONS IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER TRULY,MADLY,DEEPLY.....

My first proposal and the shock

In april 2006,i made a trip to PUNE to c my sweetheart, tho at dat time she didnt know it.Actually i lid to my mom that be a ambitious person, im goin to meet a friend of my brother to take expert guidance from him.Actually, i did..but it lasted only for an hour.de moment i saw her in station,was so happy..no bounds to it..wanted to propose to her..but somehow controlled it..de day went okay..v wer together in a part along with another friend of ours...jus passed the day..all de other day went away like dat...only one of the four days v got to meet lonesome..she shared some of the deepest secrets of hers.....den out of emotion, i told my deeply guarded secret to her..But never did i feel dat im tellin it to her..den de trip did not go well coz for others happiness v gave ours.....on the last day after our friend went off, v met for the last dinner(@ dat time who thot things wud go de way dat it actually did in future)...i was completely pissed off, but did nopt show it out....i left for chennai...de whole journey, i was always in tears ....coz de situation was like i ll never get to c her again........

Den in month of june came a day....out of emotion de day arrived...she replied for a msg dat der is no rong in likin a gal as it wud propel him to greater heights..i replied dat if de gal was same to whom im relpyin den wat wud be de answer...she was completely taken aback..she thot i was kiddin which i was not.....she did not kno wat to reply..she said she ll call me later.....i felt bad..but some day she has to know it..den after days together she called me...she told me dat v ll talk as frenz as usual till de moment came for de haltin everythin...i painfully agreed coz never i wanted to c tears in her eyes dat too coz of me....

den came june 30th...she was goin to her home and me to tirupathi with my team members...dat time durin messagin she replied dat her parents wud not agree at any cost..dat time i got it...but i wanted it to come from her mouth.....i waited...

in the first week of july, asusaul durin messagin, she told me she wanted to tell me one thing..but if she tells it den it would be last call....but i persisted..i somehow convinced that dat need not be de case..v can still continue..she thot and thot and thot.....den she said wat i wanted to hear....SHE TOO LIKES ME AND WANTS TO BE WITH ME FOR LIFE.....

find of MY LIFE - Part 3

Den came the end of trianin dayz, i was about to leave the company.I did not want to came back for the fear of fallin in deep love with her..But she some how managed to make me come back.four days after i came back,she left for pune.It was de deep shock for me.I did kno wat to talk to her at dose last moments.It was like v wer never to meet again.de meetings in future wud be during other frenz weddin or her own weddin coz i decided dat if i wer to marry a person it wud be her r none else..I did not want dis to happen at all..But wat i thot wud not happen was happenin in front of my eyes.She arrived in auto with her luggage.I was waitin with one of our frenz.She wanted me talk somethin.But dose last moments, i preferred to be in silence.But wen she repeatedly asked me to talk, dat waz it, cud not take more.I broke down, dat too very emotionally.Cin me weepin,she cried.She took me by the hand and took me aside.De first touch of hers sent a shrill of chill down my spine.I felt for her truly, madly,deeply.She promised dat she wud be in touch with from der also and i ned not worry.She at dat point of time never knew wat i felt for her and i too, made a point of never makin her kno wat i felt.She got into de bus and lo, she was goin away from me.If was like pullin out somethin from me and takin it away..i wept the whole nite over the arms of joey, one of my best frenz for life.SHE IS MY GAL.I LOVE HER THAT WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS.

find of MY LIFE - Part 2

After some days, due to the steep increase in the level of noise pollution especially in the last row, v had the seatings changed in the shuffled order.And dis gal was made to sit beside me.Dis side, i had my wall and on the other side was dis gal.Two days went by, both of us did not even exchange even a single word.canna say it as a clash of egos.v wer just waitin for the other to start.Den the third i just asked her "do u kno english?".she answered in the affirmative.Den i told her she can talk a bit to me fi she has no problems.Den started de our saga as good friends.v used to have such a good time.Den after some days i asked her cell number.Did not believe it, she gave it immediately.Actually de reason was dat,i haD a likin for a bitch initially and dis female used to help me out in guidin me out.First and all it used only for clearin doubts and prep for exams.Den slowly v started to talk a lot.She wud goto her room, finish of her work den give me a missed call.i wud go to the terrace and v used to talk for hrs together.Somehow, i liked dat gal a lot..wanted to keep on talkin with her.Even she used to talk but she used toi always maintain a safe distance.days went by like dis.Wen v come out, she used to never talk as she felt it wud unnecessarily give rise to un wanted doubts.But i still remember de day wen she caught a seat for me in the in the bus.I as usual went to de back.Den dis sweet female messaged me and told me dat a seat beside her was free.i told her i thot it was reserved for her frenz.Den she said it isnt and i cud come and sit if i wanted to.Who ll miss dis oppurtunity.dat day i had a grt time with her.As days went went along v became very close frenz indeed sharin our life to each other, tho at that point of time she was still reserved.She had to open up in the days to come.She likes to listen me talking.

find of MY LIFE - Part 1

Its time for me to tell about the FIND OF MY LIFE.Guessed quite rite, a gal who changed the course of my life.I met her durin my trainin days.ill tell u all wat all happened in my successive blogs.coz it a pretty long story and i don want to miss any moment in it.Here it goes...

It was the induction day of our batch.our batch had a strength of 108.Big batch.So, lots of fun as de majority were from my college.so even der, v had a gethu gang.De induction dfay went along very well.At the end of the day, it was time for the allocation of batches.Den started the tension.ppl wer made to recite 1,2,......and asusual ' all the 1 z form a separate batch ' .My batch had only hindi speakin ppl around me.I don kno even a speck og hindi.It was a like a alien land with alien ppl around me.Beside me was another guy who was talkin to a gal who later became my dream gal and my love in the days to come.Den a band of tamil speakin ppl, all my frenz came to my batch and v formed a gethu gang known for smokin and drinkin.This way it started,It all was onthe first day.I asusual sat only in the last row havin fun.Dis sweet gal was de batch rep @ dat point of time.Wat to do?i don talk with gals dat well....So i never cared to talk to her..wat happened in the days to come was somethin unexpexted.

Legacy of LIFE

You know me, I am a philosopher. I love principles. Yes, actions are great and I talk about them regularly, but the important stuff is what lies underneath--the principles.Here are what I consider to be the principles that we must commit to if we are to leave the legacy we desire:

1. Life is best lived in service to others. This doesn't mean that we do not strive for the best for ourselves. It does mean that in all things we serve other people, including our family, co-workers and friends.
2. Consider others' interests as important as your own. Much of the world suffers simply because people consider only their own interests. People are looking out for number one, but the way to leave a legacy is to also look out for others.
3. Love your neighbor even if you don't like him. It is interesting that Jesus told us to love others. But he never tells us to like them. Liking people has to do with emotions. Loving people has to do with actions. And what you will find is that when you love them and do good by them, you will more often than not begin to like them.
4. Maintain integrity at all costs. There are very few things you take to the grave with you. The number one thing is your reputation and good name. When people remember you, you want them to think, "She was the most honest person I knew. What integrity." There are always going to be temptations to cut corners and break your integrity. Do not do it. Do what is right all of the time, no matter what the cost.
5. You must risk in order to gain. In just about every area of life you must risk in order to gain the reward. In love, you must risk rejection in order to ask that person out for the first time. In investing you must place your capital at risk in the market in order to receive the prize of a growing bank account. When we risk, we gain. And when we gain, we have more to leave for others.
6. You reap what you sow. In fact, you always reap more than you sow--you plant a seed and reap a bushel. What you give you get. What you put into the ground then grows out of the ground. If you give love you will receive love. If you give time, you will gain time. It is one of the truest laws of the universe. Decide what you want out of life and then begin to sow it.
7. Hard work is never a waste. No one will say, "It is too bad he was such a good, hard worker." But if you aren't they will surely say, "It's too bad he was so lazy - he could have been so much more!" Hard work will leave a grand legacy. Give it your all on your trip around the earth. You will do a lot of good and leave a terrific legacy.
8. Don't give up when you fail. Imagine what legacies would have never existed if someone had given up. How many thriving businesses would have been shut down if they quit at their first failure? Everyone fails. It is a fact of life. But those who succeed are those who do not give up when they fail. They keep going and build a successful life - and a legacy.
9. Don't ever stop in your pursuit of a legacy. Many people have accomplished tremendous things later on in life. There is never a time to stop in your pursuit of a legacy. Sometimes older people will say, "I am 65. I'll never change." That won't build a great life! No, there is always time to do more and achieve more, to help more and serve more, to teach more and to learn more. Keep going and growing that legacy!
These are core principles to live by if you want to become the kind of person who leaves a lasting legacy.

my happiness

HAPPINESS iz one word which i use normally..coz dat one word means all to me..infact to uz all, i would say...@ de end of de day,wat u earn for iz only to lead a life dat u wan...Wen u lead a lif dat u wan, u r gonna be happy..some derive deir happiness frm wat dey do..some by buyin deir favourite branded items and humpty number of wayz..i derive my happiness only frm my FRENZ...frenz iz a nice topic on which i can for hrs together if not for months together...i have frenz all my life who wer all nice...if i start tellin deir names den de namelist wood go on n on..
its not dat only if u talk wit a person he bcums ur frnd r wit ur frenz u hav to talk a lot....der iz one frnd of mine(whose name i don wish 2 tell)...wit whom i don talk a lot....v both r very close to each other..our gang iz a big one..in de whole set,v 2 don talk much to each other...but i lik his presence and he liks mine...even wen i go to his hous once in a vile,i don talk much...but v r very close frenz..itz not v don talk @all...v talk wen needed...wen he haz probz he askz me... wen i hav i look upto him...im lucky in a way dat all my close frenz r in contact wit me..even tho v don c each other regularly...in my coll our gang waz considered as de worst...coz de waz v used drink n come to de classes...smok in de campus,put gutkha in de clazzroomz .de gals, xcept a few consider us as untouchables...speakin to us waz a insult to dem...frm de bottom of our heart v wer good..dat i can say with pride coz r motto waz to liv r lives in r own way without disturbin anybody.....if ppl consider dat only de above said qualitiez r de traits of a rong person so b it...v ne'er felt for it....but v wer a close knit gang....nobody waz allowed inside....

i said previously dat im lucky in dis thin..coz wer ever i go, i get good ppl as my very close frenz...even recently also i got many ppl who bcame my very close frenz even tho language waz a major barrier to us....

lastly i would lik to say one thin...it would look lik a filmy dialog but itz my own....
all my close frenz r in my blood....
in diz way dey would come with all thro my lif ..
it may be boy r gal, nevertheless...

my bitterest enemy and my best friend

u all may think der are two ppl of which one iz my best friend and de other, my most bitter enemy...but for me both are one and de same.dat person is nothin but SOLITUDE...sumtimes if serves as my best frnd...givin me de peace of mind dat i wan de most with all de happiness and joy for me to enjoy...especially i donot lik to be disturbed wen im in for a long journey....
de same turns against me at de end of de day, wen i hibernate at home after de day iz over,
de same loneliness otherwise solitude haunts me like hell..i have nobody here with whom i can talk anythin..de ppl with whom i m an open book have left me alone here to suffer and have gone to deir favourite destinations..dis loneliness sumtimes gets de devil out of me to make me behave in an odd manner dat many wont understand.........

obsessive compulsive disorder

let me be very frank with u all....
i have a strange disease called obsessive compulsive disorder...
dat too after comin to hyderabad dis disease haz caused a hell a lot of chaos inside me,
to me and coz of me to others also.....i ll tell u clearly wat iz dis disease...itz not kinda of one dat invades u physically...it haz got to do somethin with onez emotions.Emotional struggle iz de worst n soul drainin, one can ever xperience in his life...coz itll not allow u do anythin in a proper way..u ll not be able to liv with it and without it...if u think of sumthin, u keep ur heart n soul in it..u wan it @ any cost..u ll do watever to get it..til u get it u canna do any other thin..it eatz ur whole brain away...diz iz wat is happenin to me...
U may hav come to a conclusuion by now dat dis person is psycho..but dats not de case..some ppl may find dis funny to..but both r rong conclusions...first thin iz dat diz iz not psychik but,on de other hand it makez me behave lik one sometimes..den some may think diz as funny.if u take diz as funny den itz all upto u.....
normally wen i do any work or do anythin lik walkin on de road,travellin,watchin a movie,or playin or doin sumthin dey iz some kinda thinkin goin on, in my subconsious mind..
diz happens to me even durin givin de xams.....till i get over de thought by gettin de end result dat formed de thought i wont even get de sleep...
did ya al get wat de disease means

a new beginning

hullo evrybdy,
to de ppl who do not kno me, let me introduce me to u..
im Badri....actually dis isnt my full name...my full name goez pretty long...
so thought of shortenin it up...coz would b eazy for me introduce myself and for
u all to kno me and remember my name...